A new year always seems to get everyone thinking about what they want to do differently. This year will be the year that a resolution sticks. But we all know it's just another year, and to make resolutions is almost to set yourself up for disaster that you know is going to happen no matter how hard you try. What if people set resolutions to drink more wine? Eat more desserts? Have more road rage? Sounds absurd, and yet those would likely be easier to achieve then to quit drinking all together, give up on sweets, or drive with total patience.
So when I started to think about a new year approaching, I realized that not only will this be a new year but a new decade for me. The year of the 30. Yikes! And where am I in life? In the place I had hoped to be? Yes and no. I am married to a man I love deeply, who brings me so much joy every day that I feel as though i'm too lucky for words. I have a house, that I own, that stays warm in the winter and cool in the summer. I have a job, beautiful friends, and quite frankly a great sense of happiness.
Sure, i have some pudge i'd like to see disappear around those well known pudge-attacting parts, we have a kitchen that can't seem to complete itself, and my husband is still out of work despite months of trying hard to find something. So what to resolve for? Well, here are a few things that I think i'll work towards this year:
1) To treat my body with respect - what I feed it and how I treat it will either come back to help me or hinder me. So instead of all or nothing, I will work to treat myself with love, seeking a healthier me instead of a skinnier me.
2) To start a family - let's be honest, we want a family. And as much as I hate saying it outloud, i'm terrified. What if i fail at getting pregnant? what if i fail at being a mother? what if i can't handle the financial responsibility? But what greater gift then to join to people in love to create something so unique, so loveable. Maybe it's time to face some fears and just try.
3) To give more - money, time, love, respect... just to give in general. Life feels a lot like all it does it take and take again. It's easy to become selfish, to want to hold on and only hand out negatives. But the only way to overcome a life of taking is to give.
